Apprehensive.

Night readers. Tonight, I feel um well, apprehensive. I knew this word from a book. The title is The Giver. I read that book for my English Art Class. Apprehensive means gloomy, not sure, a negative feelings, unexplainable feeling. Or in Indonesia, maybe we call it as "galau"

The Giver told me one thing:
Apprehensive means galau.

Yeah, galau. I feel galau right now. But not like other teenagers, I feel apprehensive because of myself. And I just.... don't know how to express my feelings right now.

Underestimate. I think, people always underestimating me. I don't know, wether its true or not. But.... yeah :'(

Walaupun gue kerja keras, usaha mati-matian, usaha sampe all-out, tetep aja satu kata yang gue dapet. Gagal. Dan yang bikin nyesek, terkadang orang yang nggak berusaha sekeras kita malah berhasil. Kegagalan memang keberhasilan yang tertunda. Tapi kalo gagal terus, apa emang ada yang salah?

Dan entah kenapa, gue selalu merasa orang itu underestimate ke gue. Entah kenapa. Mungkin 75% memang ada yang underestimate ke gue. 25% lainnya? Gue sendiri. Gue sendiri yang beranggapan orang selalu underestimate ke gue.

Apprehensive banget gue saat ini. Susah ngejelasin apa yang gue rasain. Gue udah cerita kebeberapa orang. Dan respon yang saya dapat, salah satunya ini:

Stupid-_-

What I have to do now, is calming down. Think for the next plan, next step. Reach my dream and going to the extra miles. Work harder than someone else.

Im not the best, but I wanna show to the world that I can! Im not a loser. Im not. Im not a loser. Im a winner. Winner for the future.

Bytheway, thankyou for made my day Ladia and Adey! Meloveya guys :*

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